My Mother Made-Up "A Dream I Had" in Order to Gaslight Me into Thinking That My Father Hadn't Sexually Abused Me

      Some time in late June or early July of 2023, I recovered memories of my mother telling me (at age seven or eight) that I’d had a dream about getting a bird's egg stuck in my ear. I believe that some or all of what she said about this dream was made-up, in order to cover-up for the abuse I experienced, and in order to distract me from the abuse, and gaslight me into thinking that my father had not abused me.

 

     This memory seems to originate from somewhere around the age of seven (i.e., in 1994) or age eight (1995).

     I say "seems to" because it's difficult to pinpoint when, exactly, this happened. That's because (as I have explained in my previous writing about the abuse and memory loss I suffered) I noticed, around the age of twenty-five, that my memories prior to age ten were incomplete. I didn't suspect that I'd been abused until years after that, though, because my girlfriend at the time told me that it's normal not to remember some of your childhood. I subsequently realized that it is very normal to not remember large blocks of your childhood because you were sexually abused. Adaptive Information Processing (A.I.P.) is the term applied to the process by which we forget or ignore traumatic memories for the sake of improving our chances at survival.

     I have previously stated that the majority of the incidents of abuse occurred in mid-1995, mid-1996, or both summers.

      This leads me to suspect that it’s possible that the abuse began at age seven instead of age eight; I’m not sure. It’s hard to say, due to the memory loss I suffered around that time (caused by the initial sexual abuse, partial suffocation during that abuse, and subsequent gaslighting and brainwashing by my father). Also, I have previously stated that the abuse could have began at age five, when I drew a picture of a hamster covered in holes (referred to as “Incident #1” in my first report to police, and referred to as “Incident #3” in my second report to police, after I recovered additional memories). So it’s entirely possible that I was abused between the ages of five and eight, in addition to the majority of the incidents, which occurred at age eight and nine.

      Regarding the supposed dream itself: I seem to remember myself, sitting at our kitchen table, eating something, most likely cereal. This could only have happened at our house at 524 East Washington Avenue in Lake Bluff, Illinois, because we moved into that house in summer 1992, when I was five years old, and did not move again until 2005 or 2006.

      I remember my mother – sitting across from me, at the other end of the kitchen table – telling me about a dream that I’d had. I remember asking her - maybe that day, or maybe the next day, or a while afterwards – something like, “What else did I dream?”, or possibly, “Did I have a dream last night?”. To repeat: I remember - at some point during the conversation about the dream, or else shortly thereafter – that I was relying on my mother to tell me what happened in my own dream. This should give an indication as to how much I trusted her at the time.

      I have had this memory for a very long time. I probably didn’t think about it – or didn’t think about it often – between the years of 2000 and 2015 (the period of time during which I had no memories of the abuse). But the memory of my mother screaming “It’s in his ear!” has popped-up in my memories, every now and then, for years. I’m not sure when I began remembering this, or whether I ever lost the memory in the first place. All the times that I recalled remembering this possible dream, up to a month ago, all I could remember were those words that my mother screamed, and the notion that I’d supposedly dreamed about a bird egg being stuck in my ear.

      Until a month ago, I have remembered the words “It’s in his ear” as some of the last words uttered in a dream I’d had, about getting a bird’s egg stuck in my ear. The exact words I believe myself to have “heard” in that possible dream, were “It’s in his ear! It’s in his ear! HIS EAR!!!” The last sentence, of those three, seems less likely to have been part of that possible dream, than the first two sentences. Until a month ago, I believed that the first two utterances of “It’s in his ear” were from the dream, and that “his ear” was something that either: 1) I “heard” while waking up from that dream; or else 2) my subconscious mind added to the memories of the dream, while I was awake, some time after the dream occurred.

      To be perfectly clear: I’m not sure whether these memories are due to an actual dream I had, or whether the entire dream was made-up by my mother. It’s possible that I did have a dream, but that my mother either: 1) added details to the dream that weren’t there; or else 2) substituted a dream she made-up, for whatever I was telling her that I’d dreamed about.

      My memories of either the dream - or what my mother told me about the dream - are that I was playing on the edge of our yard, in the dirt, and somehow got a bird’s egg stuck in my ear.

      There is nothing in my medical records about doctors having to remove a bird’s egg from my ear. And I have no concrete memories which would indicate that such a thing ever actually happened.

      This could only mean that either: 1) I dreamed it; or 2) I dreamed something else, and my mother substituted her own narrative for some or all of what I told her I dreamed about.

      Given the incomplete nature of this possible dream, and these memories – and given the memories of molestation and anal rape which have resurfaced in my mind since 2015 – all of this causes me to suspect that at least some these memories may have originated from something that my father did to me.

      To me, the most likely explanation, seems to be that my father may have ejaculated onto my face, and into my ear. If he did, then my mother would have been the only person around who would have had the ability and the incentive to clean me up after the abuse. It’s entirely possible that my father ejaculated into my ear, causing my mother to scream “It’s in his ear” when noticing the semen, and prompting her to clean it out. I suppose it’s possible that my father put something else in my ear, like spit or feces, but that seems unlikely.

      I seem to remember my mother having been very insistent, during that conversation at the kitchen table, that I’d dreamed what I was talking about. Or else she was insistent that her recollection of events was superior to my own. Possibly both.

      I also seem to remember my mother telling me that she knew what I was dreaming about, because she heard me talking in my sleep. I don’t know if that’s true, because I’m not aware of any existing proof that I talked in my sleep as a child. I do know that I occasionally talk in my sleep as an adult, so it’s possible that I did this as a child as well. But even if I was talking in my sleep about a bird egg stuck in my ear, that doesn’t come anywhere close to fully explaining the memories I have. I say that because I have no memories of what I was saying during that supposed dream; I only remember my mother screaming those eight words (or possibly ten words).

      I know that what I have said above, mostly consists of incomplete memories and speculation about said memories, and that this does not constitute direct proof that I was abused, nor proof that my mother made up a dream I had. But the fact that I have so much to say about this possible dream, leads me to conclude that this is something that needs to be talked about, in the context of what I remember related to the abuse.

      I believe that my mother intentionally implanted false memories about dreams that she couldn't possibly know that I was having. Unless, of course, I talked in my sleep. But I repeat: 1) That does not explain all the questions I have relating to the supposed dream; and 2) I have no memory of what I was saying during that dream, only of what my mother was saying. All of the verbal information that I have about that possible dream, comes from my mother, and not from myself. To me, this strongly suggests that my mother made up most of the dream, or perhaps even the entire thing.

 

 

 

 

 

     Another thing I should mention, which seems relevant to bring up here, is the incident which I numbered “Incident #4” in my second report to police. It is relevant to mention here because this incident and the dream about the bird egg both relate to my first experiences with ejaculation.

     That incident was not mentioned in my first report, because I did not then (and still do not) have any concrete memories, attached to that incident, which would suggest that I definitely endured sexual abuse during that incident. But that does not mean that sexual abuse couldn’t have happened during that incident; I do not know because my memories of the incident are incomplete.

      In my second report to police, I stated the following: 

     "#4. There is a 70% chance that the reason why I thought I remembered (at the age of five or six) the character Elmer Fudd performing a sexual act upon the Babs Bunny character from Tiny Toons, is because my father may have done something to me while watching Tiny Toons that exposed me to sex, or at least to what ejaculate (or to what “cum” / “come”) is.

     "I'm pretty confident that I saw Elmer Fudd sticking his shotgun into Babs Bunny's guts, and her screaming, on television. I know that I had sexual thoughts about this afterwards, which involved white cream and Babs Bunny's crotch. But I do not know how I – at the age of five or six – could have known that white cream had anything to do with sex or orgasm, as I did not ejaculate any fluid until I was at least 12 or 13 years old. That is why I suspect that my father may have somehow exposed me to sex - or something related to ejaculation - while I was watching Tiny Toons. This incident occurred at 524 East Washington Avenue.

     "I have remembered this since it happened, but this is the first time I have discussed it in statements to the authorities, because I have only recently begun to suspect that my father, or the possibility of something sexual happening to me, might have had anything to do with why I knew that white cream was the result of sex at just six years old."

      I do not mean to retract, nor revise, anything about the three paragraphs above; I only mean to add details and context to those memories.

      It’s possible that my father either: 1) exposed me to sex while I was watching “Tiny Toons” (the actual name of the show is Tiny Toon Adventures); or else 2) exposed me to sex afterwards, while humiliating me for thinking that Babs Bunny (the cartoon rabbit character, which wore a dress and had big eyes and long eyelashes) was pretty.

     I also remember having Buster Bunny and Babs Bunny stuffed animals some time around that age (five years to eight years old). I suppose it’s possible that I had some sort of sexual attachment to the Babs Bunny doll, although I cannot remember such a thing; but if I did, then it would be totally reasonable for me to suspect that my father subjected me to some form of shame or humiliation over my attraction to the character.

      Original episodes of Tiny Toon Adventures were aired between September 1990 and December 1992, but the show went into "off-network syndication" (i.e., re-runs); first on the Warner Bros. channel, and later on Nickelodeon. Re-runs of the show were viewable for years after that. This means that Tiny Toon Adventures was definitely being aired – and frequently – between 1992 (the earliest that this possibly could have happened) and 1996 (the final year that the successful attempts at molestation and rape took place).

      This is the first time I have mentioned being anally raped by my father, in all of my previous articles about the abuse. I will publish more information about those memories – most of which I recovered between October 2020 and November 2022 – as soon as I am ready to speak confidently about what I can remember. I have declined to talk about it until now, because of the fragmented and complex nature of those memories, and because of the shame involved in admitting that I lost my virginity to my own father.

 

 

 

 

 

Written and Published on July 27^th, 2023.

Edited and Expanded on August 3rd, 2023.

 

Includes three paragraphs from my second report to Lake Bluff Police; which was written between January 9^th and February 3^rd, and between February 27^th and March 3^rd, 2021; and was delivered to Lake Bluff Police the day after completion (i.e., on March 4^th, 2021).

 

That report can be viewed at the following address:

     http://aquarianagrarian.blogspot.com/2021/03/second-statement-to-police-regarding.html

 

Against Sedation, Unnecessary Injections, and the Therapeutic Use of Ketamine (and Thoughts on Vaccines and Autism)

      When I noticed a pattern of what used to be considered "club drugs", getting into therapy clinics (beginning with ecstasy in the 1970s, prescribed to married couples; and now ketamine), I said something about it. This caused me to be seen as “old-fashioned” and "irrationally worried".
      When I discovered that trans and gay icons Michael Alig and Ernie Glam had likely used rohypnol ("roofies") to drug celebrity "drag kid" “Desmond is Amazing” Napoles, so that they could rape him - around the same time that Napoles was seen mimicking snorting ketamine, while seated on a couch with another transvestite - I said something about it.. This got me called a “transphobe”.
      Well, I don't care what they call me, I’m not going to shut up.


      I'm not going to stay silent about ketamine often being administered via injection.

     Despite the fact that ketamine is taken in powder form when used as a street drug, but comes in the form of pills in a clinical setting, prescription ketamine pills can be crushed, and snorted, and the drug can then be consumed just like how it is consumed on the street.

     Between excessive vaccination shortly after birth, repeated booster shots for Covid, and the push for ketamine usage in clinical settings, people are getting way too accustomed to getting shot-up all the time; and for no good, medically necessary reason.

      When did we decide that we're fine with receiving injections from Walgreen's employees? When did we decide that we're fine with receiving vaccine injections in an open-air parking lot? This is not an exaggeration; I actually witnessed this, in Waukegan, Illinois, in 2020. Walgreen’s was vaccinating people outdoors in order to observe “social” distancing regulations (which would probably be more accurately termed “physical distancing” regulations). Don't we have standards for our own health?


      What the hell could be going wrong with your life, that you need to be shot-up with something which both sedates you and makes you trip at the same time? You can't even choose between sedation and hallucination? For God’s sake, pace yourself. If you're going to do drugs, try not to do more than one or two drugs at the same time.
      I guess the needle holes are supposed have a therapeutic benefit too? The puncture wounds are there to make you feel better? If it hurts and feels good at the same time, and isn’t medically necessary, then it's a maladaptive behavior. It doesn’t need to be promoted.

      You know what I do when I feel stressed (aside from smoke weed, which is both a mild stimulant and a mild depressant)? I massage my hands.
     Try it. Once your hands feel better, it's easier to massage other parts of your body. Start with your elbows and shoulders and joints. Then massage your feet, so that you can walk more comfortably, and avoid allowing the muscles in your feet to become tense during long drives or long periods wearing shoes and tight-fitting socks with elastic bands, which reduce circulation). Then massage your head and neck, until your neck can turn freely and move back and forth easily and quickly.
     Do some push-ups; not to get buff, nor to instill self-discipline; just to correct your posture. If you don't like push-ups, do yoga. Do some shoulder stretches that expand your range-of-motion. I don't have time to go on walks, but if that's your thing, do it. Put on some calming music and burn some incense. Cuddle up with a loved one or a pet.
      Do whatever you need to do. Just don't shoot yourself up with hallucinogens that also sedate you. This is not therapy. It is drug use, disguised as medicine.


     We need to pay attention to what our bodies are telling us, and respond in-kind. Sedatives block pain signals which are essential to our survival. The fact that narcotics help us avoid going into shock when we are experiencing extreme levels of pain, does not mean that we should adopt an understanding of comfort which values pain suppression above feeling and confronting the pain for just long enough as is necessary to diagnose the actual problem and its cause.
      Opioids and narcotics do have a medical benefit; they are sedatives. That's why narcotic pain relievers are used in controlled manners in hospitals. But this class of drugs also includes heroin. Heroin provides the medical benefit of pain relief, but that fact alone does not make it an acceptable drug, or the best drug, to use in a clinical setting.
     The fact that some sedatives are generally regarded as "safe", and have helped certain people who are strong enough to survive using them, certainly merits making them legal for use by adults. But these are not excuses for recommending and prescribing sedatives as freely as they are being recommended and prescribed; and especially not when the patient is a minor.
     Not everything that relieves pain is a medicine. People who cut themselves often report feeling euphoria, and a sense of release, when they self-harm. This is due to the release of endorphins, and also to a decrease in blood pressure. The fact that the behavior reduces pain, doesn’t mean that it’s medically beneficial overall, since it only masks the pain. And, like a syringe, it creates new pain somewhere else (that is, at the site of injection or cutting, which then becomes an easy place for pathogens to enter the bloodstream, and cause infection, resulting in more pain).
     These vicious cycles must be avoided.

      Ketamine therapy is experimental, and it is still in its early stages. Just ten years ago, this was exclusively a recreational drug (known as "Special K", and causing a reaction that users described as feeling stuck in a "K-hole").

     Even if ketamine has helped some people, that does not mean that it should be advertised on Facebook and YouTube (by companies such as Mindbloom and Joyous) anywhere near as much as it has been. And, judging by how rarely the word ketamine comes up in discussion threads underneath these companies' posts, the companies and patients are not too eager to admit exactly which "therapy" these companies are promoting.

     We are not asking ourselves about the long-term side effects; for example, what will happen to the thought processes (and addiction patterns) of people who are told that all of their problems will be solved, if and only if they submit to intravenous administration of a sedative hallucinogen.

     We are teaching depressed people that the solutions are at the bottom of a syringe. This, coupled with the ongoing existing opioid epidemic, threatens to create the perfect conditions for a new generation of heroin addicts (and of people addicted to other I.V. drugs).

      In Brave New World, Aldous Huxley described "baby hatcheries", in which all modern babies would be birthed out of test-tubes, instead of born out of their mothers' wombs (the only people left doing so, being described by the moderns as "savages").
     In these hatcheries, different classes of workers (still embryos in-vitro) are subjected to various levels of alcohol poisoning. This causes the babies to be “born” with different levels of brain damage, and different levels of limits upon their mental capacities. This dooms them to a lifetime of social and economic immobility, lack of freedom, and inability to produce or innovate anything that they have not been directly ordered to produce.
     We can see – judging by the problems experienced by adult children of alcoholics, and the reduction in crime which followed the removal of lead from gasoline – that Huxley’s “warning” about the future, might have actually been intended as a prediction.

      Sedation is not a solution. Medically unnecessary sedation is the problem. Sedation makes us blind to our problems.
     Sedation makes it harder to remember what happened to us. Sedation makes it harder to move our mouths to explain what we remember. “Atypical antipsychotics”, prescribed to treat depression and other illnesses, often contain neuro-tranquilizing sedatives (Abilify is one such example). [Note: I have written about this topic previously, in my March 2021 article "Abilify and Other [']Atypical Antipsychotics['] Are Overprescribed, Dangerous, and Increase Some Psychotic Symptoms". That article can be read at the following link: http://www.aquarianagrarian.blogspot.com/2021/03/abilify-and-other-atypical.html]

     When a depressed person is suffering from memory loss / amnesia, or is concerned that they might have forgotten a past abusive or traumatic event, should under no circumstances be given any sedatives that might hinder their ability to recall and describe such events. To sedate a person who is in such a situation, should really be considered suppressing evidence of a crime (or even interfering with a criminal investigation), if there’s any chance that the trauma they suffered was caused by an abuser intentionally.

      Sedation is not good for you (unless you are prone to bouts of violence which cannot be explained by a previous intentional assault, in which case there are many milder forms of sedation available, and criminal action would be more therapeutic than sedation).

      There are ways to drink alcohol without becoming dependent upon it, and without using too much. You can find Kombuchas that contain just one proof of naturally-occurring fermented alcohol.
     Do you think you would want to drink as much alcohol as you do, if you were to eat more fruit, drink more smoothies, and/or eat foods that have cooking sherry or brandy in them? I bet you wouldn’t.

      Similarly, would you drink or use drugs as much as you do, if nobody had ever mistreated you or beaten you up or abused you? I doubt it. Would you abuse drugs - or gamble, or whatever your vice is - as much, if the person who hurt you the most, were in prison? Hell no.
     So, then, why are we routinely distracting people from their original problems, and demanding that they get sedated?

      Some people suspect that thimerosal and mercury in vaccines could be a major contributing cause to autism. I don’t know if that’s the case. But I do think we should be asking ourselves whether repeated injection could be a cause of autism.

      American children are given many more injections at young ages, compared to American children fifty years ago, and children abroad. I remember taking an allergy test at age eight; they pricked my back eighty times to test me for eighty different things. My reaction gradually shifted from an honest “Ow!” to an emotionally dead, robotic repetition of “Ow. …Ow. …Ow. …Ow.”, all expected, and laden with inevitability and futility. I could feel my sensitivity to pain, and my positive regard for the people who allowed this to happen to me, leaving my body.

      Forget about the chemicals for a second; we are desensitizing people to pain through repeated needle penetration. Common characteristics associated with autism include aversion to touch and self-stimulating behaviors. What better way to cause fear of being touched by others, than stabbing someone with a needle eighty times? What better way to cause a need to stimulate oneself, than to expose someone to painful and unwanted contact with others? Maybe some autistic symptoms are just natural reactions to exposing someone to repeated painful unwanted unnecessary interactions with others.

     Now let's think about what autism might have to do with sedation.

     There are currently class action lawsuits underway, over whether acetaminophen (the active ingredient in Tylenol) could have a causal relationship to autism.

     Those who defend acetaminophen say that it is not toxic, and that it is the night-time pain reliever which is most often prescribed to pregnant women. This, they say, suggests that acetaminophen is not harmful to the developing fetus.

     Well I say "So what if Tylenol is the pain reliever most often prescribed to pregnant women? That fact alone doesn't make it harmless. We might as well be asking which intravenous narcotic street drug is considered the least harmful to pregnant women." Just because something is the least harmful in its class, doesn't mean it's harmless, and doesn't mean it's good for babies.

     We should notice that a lot of the same people working for the federal health programs, who say that acetaminophen is safe - I'm talking about the Department of Health and Human Services under the Biden Administration - are the same people who consider Tylenol (and drugs similar to it) as so dangerous, that they were willing (in the 1980s and 1990s) to implement laws against drug possession in schools, which eventually enabled them to strip-search teenage school girls if they suspected possession of drugs, whether it was hard drugs or ibuprofen. [Source: http://www.aclu.org/press-releases/us-supreme-court-review-unconstitutional-strip-search-13-year-old-student-ibuprofen]
     Now, ordering minors to remove clothing is an invasion of privacy which is impossible to justify, and it is an obvious example of legislative overreach. But that fact does not mean that minors' access to pain relievers should not be regulated or limited by trustworthy adults. If Tylenol and acetaminophen are so safe, then why have teenagers chugged Tylenol in order to commit suicide? [Source: http://www.timesunion.com/local/article/Suicidal-teens-turn-to-Tylenol-4712700.php]

     Acetaminophen is dangerous. It suppresses the symptoms of cold and flu, but it does not actually cure those things. Colds and influenza are caused by different viruses, but the fact that they are viral diseases does not mean that they can't result in infections that will need to be treated with antibiotics. Severe colds and flus can result in infections of the ear, nose, throat, and lungs, which would be more effectively treated with the mucus thinner guaifenesin, antibiotics like Azithromycin, and/or injection of saline to relieve extreme dehydration, rather than with acetaminophen.

     Acetaminophen sedates the body, providing it with adequate rest, which is therapeutic. I'm not disputing that rest helps the body, and is essential to recovery from colds and flus, buying the body time to recognize the virus and muster a defense against it. But rest can be achieved without sedation. Taking acetaminophen is unnecessary whenever the patient is able to get to sleep on his own.

     Why sedate when you can medicate?

     Sure, acetaminophen suppresses the inflammatory response. But isn't the inflammatory response part of the immune response? And isn't the immune response necessary for survival? Why are we suppressing the immune response? Are we trying to cause an immune deficiency? Why use acetaminophen to reduce inflammation, if more natural anti-inflammatories (such as ice, ginger, tomatoes, olive oil, leafy greens, fish, nuts, and fruits) might solve the problem by themselves? [Note: I am not talking about acute inflammation here, nor about burns by fire or chemicals; some cases of inflammation are extreme, and should be limited. But inflammation should not be stopped altogether.]

     It would be great if we got to the bottom of this issue; whether acetaminophen causes autism. But we should also be asking whether acetaminophen can act as a sedative, contributing to short-circuiting of the nervous system, producing the same sorts of unpredictable bodily movements which, in the autistic person, are always described as "nervous tics" (or "flapping"). The same nervous tics or flapping, seen in a patient who has A.D.H.D. (Attention Deficit and Hyperactivity Disorder) will be described as symptoms of A.D.H.D..

     That's why, when we observe symptoms commonly thought to be characteristic of autism or A.D.H.D., we should be very careful to consider whether some other illness (aside from autism, and bearing some degree of overlap in symptoms) might be the actual culprit instead.

     [Note: I have previously commented on this topic; in my November 2022 video "Covid-19, Pneumonia, Sedation, and the Possible Link Between Acetaminophen and Autism and A.D.H.D.". That video can be viewed at the following address: http://rumble.com/v1vgcle-covid-19-pneumonia-sedation-and-the-possible-link-between-acetaminophen-and.html]

      There are alternatives to sedation, injection, ketamine, alcohol, heroin, antipsychotic neuro-tranquilizers, and acetaminophen.

     The fact that our doctors want to end our suffering as quickly as possible, shouldn't have to mean that we allow them to kill us slowly, by administering sedatives that compromise our nervous systems' abilities to feel which of our organs are damaged and need repair. We don’t have to stay life-long drug addicts just because the medical-industrial complex, Big Pharma and the violent administrative state have decided that being a drug addict is fine as long as a doctor gives you permission to be one.

      The Western model of medicine is flawed because it focuses on relieving pain and masking the symptoms of a disease, instead of getting to the root and treating the cause of the disease. This is not a new idea, and it is not difficult to observe. Hospitals are using fentanyl to sedate patients. [Source: http://www.instagram.com/p/CqOEDDEDqFr/?fbclid=IwAR24cYX_vdPZu6NhRRmbbcCPuvaOiZ6qV2Ix5c6hd0n8HoWvvzJz5NThk1Y] This is wrong, and it needs to stop.

      If we are not careful to make sure that this trend does not continue, then someday soon, we will find that sedatives are the only officially endorsed “cures” for what we are told ails us. Then, we will be forced to take “medications” that are actually harming us, and the fact that we are laying down in one particular hospital bed will be used to prevent us from seeking a second opinion somewhere else.
     We will be led to believe that the sedative is the only thing that we need in order to survive. And we will die in our hospital beds, our so-called "need" for sedation prioritized over our actual needs for water, food, exercise, vitamins, sunlight, love, and human interaction.

      Soon, refusing to allow harmful “medications” to be administered to our children, will merit losing custody. You might think it’s unethical to refuse to allow a child who has been diagnosed with cancer, to be treated with radiation therapy. But think about this: What if they don’t have cancer? What if a second opinion needs to be sought? What if they have a non-cancerous disease that is commonly mistaken for cancer? Well, in that case, radiation might not be good for them at all. Radiation might actually increase their likelihood of developing cancer, if they did not already have it.

      We are already seeing this in the transsexual community. For one, people who receive genital surgeries are being given sedatives. Not that sedatives don’t knock people out so that they don’t wake up from surgery. Not that sedatives don’t help reduce the pain of surgery. We should be asking “are sedatives and surgery really necessary, if a person can change their gender just by changing their mind?”. And secondly, the state legislatures of Washington, California, and Maryland have introduced bills which would allow the government to take custody away from parents whom refuse to call their “transgender kids” by their preferred pronouns or refuse to give permission that they receive “gender-affirming care”.

     They sedate us because they don't want us to be able to feel what they are doing to us.

      You cannot solve old problems with new problems. New problems can only distract from the old ones. Solving problems requires solutions; not more problems.
     You have options.

Written and published on July 4th, 2023.

Edited and expanded on July 5th and 25th, 2023.

Originally published under the title "Against Sedation, Unnecessary Injections, and the Therapeutic Use of Ketamine"

To Be a Survivor of Childhood Sexual Abuse is to Be Subjected to Constant Gaslighting and Distraction

     The conspiracy of silence - regarding child abuse - works around-the-clock to concoct myriad new ailments, each year, in order to distract from children's needs to be kept safe from their abusers.

     Each of these ailments, real or imagined, is used - one after another - to keep victims of abuse "in their place" and silent. This is done by suggesting that all of the abuse survivor's problems are caused either by themselves, or by a single ailment (which is, conveniently, never child abuse).

     Here is a fictional dialogue that I wrote - partially based on real experiences, and partially based on my research into psychiatric methods which arose during the 1980s and 1990s - which should help explain what it is like to have been subjected to sexual abuse as a child, and to not be believed.

     This article explains how my "thinking" I was abused, has caused my family and therapists to suggest that I have ailment after ailment, almost as if they were intentionally trying to distract from the initial underlying trauma.

     [Note: I have not been accused of having Reactive Attachment Disorder or pathological demand avoidance. These were included solely in order to cover the range of ailments to which people's memories of abuse have been falsely attributed (or blamed). My mother and third therapist did suggest that I have a brain tumor.]

     "Why are you hiding in the closet?"

     I'm hiding from my father because he sexually abused me. I don't feel safe coming out. Could we talk about this?

     "Why are you irrationally afraid of your father? You're not forming healthy bonds with your caretakers. I think you have Reactive Attachment Disorder."

     No, I don't. I'm afraid of my father because he sexually abused me. And Reactive Attachment Disorder is a fake disease. The recommended treatment (usually for children previously victimized by their caretakers) was more forcible touching.
     [Note: You can learn more about this by researching Dr. Neil Feinberg; the Attachment Center at Evergreen, Colorado; and the "death" (murder) of Candace Newmaker during "Rebirth Therapy".
     http://www.topic.com/born-again
     http://www.theguardian.com/g2/story/0,,509588,00.html]

     "Are you hiding in the closet because you're gay?"

     I'm not gay. I was forced to have gay sex. There is a difference. You aren't listening to me. Someone hurt me. Will you protect me?

     "Maybe you're transgender. Have you thought about that?"

     Nope, the reason I seem effeminate is because my abuser worked for years to make sure that I was as submissive as possible.

     [Note: The part of the medical establishment which has been overtaken by incorrect gender ideology has been telling autistic teenage girls that they can become men. You can learn more about that by clicking on the following link:
     http://www.msn.com/en-us/health/medical/overlooking-autism-to-convince-girls-they-are-boys/ar-AA1dHREe?ocid=msedgntp&cvid=43ddda03cc75429abcb7cffb72704a11&ei=5]

     "Have you considered that you might be depressed?"

     Have you considered that my depression might be rational, and caused by the abuse that occurred?

     "What if you're mistaken? What if the abuse was an accident?"

     It wasn't. I was sexually abused on purpose. Forcible touching - occurring repeatedly, and for that long a time frame, and with that amount of pressure - could not have been unintentional. I was subjected to a malicious, criminal act, intentionally.

     "That's so vindictive. I think you have a problem forgiving people."

     I think that forgiving abusers too much results in more abuse taking place. Also, there's a rapist on the loose. Could we talk about that for a second?

     "Wow, you just can't let this go. It's like you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder."

     It's not obsessive to want all rapists to go to jail.

     "You're clearly not recovered from this. Get therapy. You need therapy."

     No, I need my rapist to be imprisoned. And I already went through three therapists. I literally already did what you're asking me to do. The most healing thing that could happen is if my rapist went to prison.

     "You seem dead-set on your alleged abuser going to prison. Would you accept financial compensation, resulting from a settlement in a civil trial?"

     No. I am not a whore who hasn't been paid yet. I am a rape and incest survivor. No amount of money can fix what happened to me. If I seek monetary damages, then I will only be accused of being a greedy, money-hungry liar, who is making false accusations and is only after his abuser's money. Please jail my rapist so he's not out walking the streets, a danger to children; that will help me heal in a way that money simply cannot.

     "If you won't go to therapy, or pursue a monetary settlement - like I advise you to - then you clearly have problems doing what you're told. You might have Oppositional Defiant Disorder."

     Nope, I was sexually abused. And my first therapist told me that I don't have O.D.D.. Also, if I wanted to enslave someone, or kill someone, or corral people onto a train in order to commit genocide, then I would tell people that my victims have Oppositional Defiant Disorder. That would be the easiest way to convince people that the victims' disobedience results from mental deficiencies that can only be dealt with through physical removal from society. The notion that Oppositional Defiant Disorder is a real thing, rests on the false assumption that all resistance, shown by children, is born out of "vindictiveness" and "hostility" that is unfounded and which has no cause. All children suspected of having O.D.D. should be asked if they feel abused or neglected by their parents, and it should be determined whether the alleged abuse or neglect actually took place. If it did, then criminal charges should be filed against the parents. I do not have O.D.D.. Nobody has O.D.D.. Obedience is not, in itself, a virtue; and refusal to obey does not indicate mental illness.

     "You won't do as you're told. Seriously, what if you have pathological demand avoidance?"

     What if I don't like to be told what to do, because consent matters to me a lot, because I was sexually abused? This condition is also known as "pervasive drive for autonomy" and "Rational demand avoidance". Avoiding unreasonable demands - like that I allow my father to abuse me, and continue to control my life decades later - is not pathological; it is rational. Knowing that I'm allowed to say "no" to something - even if it's something that I'm expected to do - makes me feel safe, and tells me that my needs and boundaries are being respected. Saying "no" also helps me buy time before having to make a final decision; time which I use to obtain more information about what I'm being asked to do, so that I can make an educated decision about whether I will be able to do it completely and do it well.

     "Think about it. You avoid demands. You're antisocial. You don't like to be touched... You're probably autistic."

     Nope; I don't like being touched without my permission, because I was sexually abused. Even people who weren't sexually abused, don't like being touched without their permission.

     "You don't want the T.S.A. to touch you, you have a problem with authority..."

     No, I just don't like being touched on the genitals, against my will, by an ugly fat government employee, and I think it's weird that you seem to like it.

     "You might be autistic, too, though. Or you might have Asperger's Syndrome."

     Yeah, well if I do have autism or Asperger's, then all my other problems (including the sexual abuse I suffered) will be blamed on autism. I'd rather focus on putting my rapist in jail, instead of getting distracted by superficial problems which resulted from the initial abuse.

     "Why would I blame all your other problems on autism?"

     For the same reason that you blamed the fact that I believe I was sexually abused (and want to do something about it) on homosexuality, transgenderism, depression, irrational fear, O.D.D., P.D.A., O.C.D., hallucinations, problems with authority, and autism; instead of blaming the person who committed the abusive acts.

     "What if you hallucinated the abuse? What if you need to be put on antipsychotics?"

     What if most antipsychotics are neuro-tranquilizing sedatives, and you're trying to damage my nervous system, in order to make it more difficult for me to remember or talk about the abuse? What if people have suffered loss of ability to speak after using the same kind of atypical antipsychotics that I was prescribed (but refused to take)? You are trying to drug me and sedate me.

     "Seriously, you could have False Memory Syndrome."

     The term False Memory Syndrome was coined by Peter Freyd, in order to damage the credibility of his daughter, who accused him of sexual abuse. The term "false memories" is literally a cover-up for child molestation, which was invented by a child rapist.

     "Everybody knows that your claims are not credible, because you have struggled with mental illness, drug addiction, and homelessness."

     Do sexual abuse victims not struggle with those things? I got addicted to drugs in an attempt to relieve the anxiety that my abuse caused; I know that drug use is a maladaptive coping mechanism and no longer use hard drugs. Mental illness is not proof that I lack credibility; rather, the fact that I experienced mental illness was a direct result of being physically, sexually, and emotionally abused, and then manipulated and gaslighted about that abuse in an attempt to make me forget. Almost everyone who was abused by a parent (and manages to get away) ends up running away from home - or moving far away from where they were born - in an attempt to avoid the abuser.

     [Note: To learn more about the causal link between sexual abuse and psychosis, please read any or all of the following five articles:
     http://www.madinamerica.com/2023/07/study-discovers-gender-specific-links-between-childhood-trauma-and-psychosis/
     http://www.madinamerica.com/2018/11/researchers-suggest-traumatic-experience-may-cause-psychotic-symptoms/
     http://www.madinamerica.com/2018/03/meta-analysis-finds-childhood-trauma-linked-psychosis-symptoms/
     http://www.madinamerica.com/2018/04/study-finds-connection-trauma-psychosis-children/
     http://www.madinamerica.com/2022/03/sexual-assault-age-risk-factor-psychosis/]

     "You're calling yourself a victim. Clearly you have a victim mentality."

     But I am the victim of a crime. I am a victim, for the purposes of my case against my father. Admitting that I was victimized does not mean that I have a victim mindset or mentality. It would be irrational to deny that I am a victim (of my father's crimes). Therapist Teal Swan says, "A person doesn't develop a victim mentality unless they've actually been victimized."

     "You are clearly angry at your father. Why can't you admit that you may have aggravated his actions in your own mind? He was just a very strict father."

     It is perfectly normal and rational to be angry at someone who raped you. Being an extremely strict parent - just like being a very touchy-feely parent - can cover-up for some really sick behaviors. My mind has not exaggerated, nor aggravated, my father's actions; he was 38 and 39 years old when he committed most of his crimes, against myself, at age eight and then nine. The only facts that could be blamed for "distorting" my memory of the events, are the facts that I was much smaller then, and that I am big and strong enough to fend-off similar attacks if they were to happen today.

     "What if you have a brain tumor that is pushing up against part of your brain, making you believe you were abused?"

     ...And you would rather run the risk of exposing me to radiation poisoning, searching for that brain tumor? You intend to give me cancer under the guise of searching for a cancer?



     "But how do you know that what I'm suggesting, isn't what really happened?

     Because you're making these things up off the top of your head. And because, if you thought that one of those things really is what happened, then you'd be focusing on that one thing consistently, instead of pointing to a dozen other excuses and jumping from one bogus theory to the next.

     What are you going to suggest next? That I was abducted by an alien rather than a human being? Are you going to tell me that aliens subjected me to anal probing, and that that's why I "think" I was sexually abused?
     Now... I repeat... There's a child molester on the loose. Can we focus on putting him in prison?

     [Note: You can learn more about my views on the similarities between alien abduction and child abduction, by reading my February 2021 article "Opinion: Israelis Probably Lying About Making Contact with Extra-Terrestrials", available at the link below:

     http://www.aquarianagrarian.blogspot.com/2021/02/opinion-israelis-probably-lying-about.html]

     You can learn more about gaslighting and medical gaslighting by visiting the following link:
     http://me-pedia.org/wiki/Medical_gaslighting#:~:text=Medical%20gaslighting%20is%20when%20doctors,that%20they%20are%20not%20sick.]

     Visit the link below in order to see an Australian political cartoon about misdiagnosis:
     http://www.madinamerica.com/2019/05/young-koala-mental-health-problem/

     

Written and published on June 29th, 2023.
Edited and expanded on June 29th, July 25th, and July 27th, 2023.

Images created in mid-June 2023.

Kash Jackson Sentenced to Four Years in Prison: The State is Trying to Take Your Children Away So it Can Sexually Abuse Them

Table of Contents

     I. Introduction: Former Gubernatorial Candidate Imprisoned After Admitting to Threatening Judges

     II. Jackson Provoked into Issuing Threats After Bitter Custody Dispute

     III. Jackson Demonized as Deadbeat Dad; and Shaken Down for Money by Attorney Sally Lichter, Tied to Numerous Attorneys Suspected of Child Abuse and/or Defending Accused Child Molesters in Court

     IV. Pedophile Defender Got Jackson's Ex-Wife to Make Him Her Attorney; Parental Alienator Got Jackson to Make Him His Attorney

     V. Kash Threatened Judge Joseph Salvi, Who Helped Stop Child Sexual Abuse Lawsuit Against Teacher David Miller from Going Forward

     VI. Kash Jackson's Ex-Wife is Raising Her Kids in Lake County, Illinois, Where Child Sexual Abuse Survivors Go to Die

     VII. Kash Jackson is an American Hero

     VIII. Demonization of Fathers Leads to Exposure of Children to Sex and Genital Mutilation

     IX. The Police Aren't Obligated to Protect Abused Children

     X. Parental Alienation is Torture

     XI: Conclusion: Lake County Family Law Court System Deliberately Ganged Up on Kash Jackson in Order to Sabotage His Mental Health and Destroy His Reputation

    XII: Update

 

 

 

Content

  

     I. Introduction: Former Gubernatorial Candidate Imprisoned After Admitting to Threatening Judges

 

     On April 6th, 2023, Kash Jackson was sentenced to four years in prison, as part of a plea agreement.

      [Source:

     http://www.dailyherald.com/news/20230407/former-governor-candidate-gets-4-years-in-prison-for-threatening-lake-county-judges
     http://www.dupagecounty.gov/news_detail_T2_R774.php]

 

     He was sentenced after pleading guilty to Threatening a Public Official. He threatened two judges during a phone call he made in 2021.

 

     Jackson is best known as the 2018 gubernatorial nominee of the Libertarian Party of Illinois. He is also an activist, most notably on the topic of parents’ rights, supporting 50-50 joint custody as the default for custody agreements made in family law courts.

 

     Judge Michael Reidy delivered the sentence.
     [Source:
     http://www.dupagecounty.gov/news_detail_T2_R774.php]

 

     Although the average person might be quick to judge Kash for his crime, we should not judge too quickly, because his full story has never been told. That is, until now.

 

 

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     II. Jackson Provoked into Issuing Threats After Bitter Custody Dispute

     Jackson, born Benjamin Adam Winderweedle in Louisiana in 1978, did not threaten judges because he felt like it.

     Kash Jackson was provoked and incited into threatening the judges who denied him joint custody of his children, by the judges themselves; and by the attorneys who betrayed Kash, gouged him for money, and took advantage of his children's need for stability.

 

     Kash Jackson lost joint custody of his children as the result of an obviously political persecution, which was intended to stop Jackson's gubernatorial campaign, interfere with his freedom of speech, silence him about the state’s abuse of family courts to alienate children from their parents, and to enable greedy attorneys who want to gouge parents for money.

     This state of affairs - this unnecessary disruption of the lives of families dealing with divorce - has been allowed by Title IV-D of the Social Security Act, a federal law which obligates (and also pays) the states to force parents obligated to provide their ex-spouses and children with monetary support.

     And this political persecution against Kash - which eventually (as anyone could have predicted) became a prosecution designed to land him in prison - was evidently spearheaded by Judge Joseph Salvi's brother Al, whom is also a judge.

 

     Jackson became party to that custody dispute after his ex-wife made false allegations that Jackson had stalked her over social media and harassed her. She also made unsubstantiated allegations surrounding a time when Kash punished his son. That punishment did not involve the use of force, verbal abuse, sexual abuse, nor starvation; and Kash has never been accused of striking any of his three children.

 

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     III. Jackson Demonized as Deadbeat Dad; and Shaken Down for Money by Attorney Sally Lichter, Tied to Numerous Attorneys Suspected of Child Abuse and/or Defending Accused Child Molesters in Court

     Democratic Party -backed media (including Jordan Klepper, formerly of Comedy Central’s The Daily Show with Jon Stewart) framed Kash as a “deadbeat dad” for comedic value, and demonized him as such. But, far from being a deadbeat dad, Kash was, in fact, fighting to expose the fact that Illinois parents are subject to paying 20% more alimony than the average state in the nation. Some states charge even higher.

 

     Guardian Ad Litem Sally Lichter, who represented two of Kash's children in the custody dispute, gouged Kash - to the tune of tens of thousands of dollars - to talk to his children on the phone just twice.

     Lichter charged Kash thousands of dollars that she knew he didn't have, and knew would be better spent on alimony. On July 27th, 2021, Lichter admitted in court that she had never even bothered to find out whether Kash punished his son in the manner in which his wife claims (which were, at that time - prior to his threats against judges - the most serious charges that had ever been levied against Kash).
     [Source:
     http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERIBpZuzqfo]

 

     Lichter is friends with another G.A.L., named Joe McKeown. They are friends on Facebook, and have probably met in person as well.

     Joe McKeown once used a picture of "Family Guy" pedophile "Herbert the Pervert" - gazing lovingly at a poster of the Jonas Brothers - as his Facebook profile pic. McKeown once "liked" a local chapter of the Masons on social media.

 

     McKeown works in the law offices of Richard S. Kopsick, my father. In 2019, I accused my father of molesting me at the ages of eight and nine (in 1995 and 1996). I later recovered memories of anal abuse.
     In the early 1990s, Richard S. Kopsick defended a man named Kenneth Hasty, for attempting to rape a 19-year-old. Hasty (of Waukegan, Illinois) had previously attempted to rape a 15-year-old. Despite Hasty's second offense, Richard Kopsick claimed that Hasty had reformed his sexual behavior.

     [Sources:

     http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/ct-xpm-1993-06-11-9306110377-story.html
     http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/ct-xpm-1993-08-06-9308060436-story.html]

     Richard Kopsick formerly shared office space with Scott Gibson, who groped children’s buttocks at his pool parties in the 1990s (and loudly bragged about it in full view of other parents). Gibson works in Waukegan, and lived in Lake Forest when these incidents occurred.
     Richard Kopsick currently shares space with Doug Zeit (who defends accused child molesters, according to my mother Linda Cervetti. Cervetti admitted to knowing that Jonathan Dick was accused of child sexual abuse, and not telling me about it until twenty years later. Cervetti continues serving as her ex-husband Richard Kopsick's legal secretary, despite her apparently believing my accusations against his father (according to Special Victim Unit prosecutor Victor o'Block).

     Victor o'Block declined to file charges against Richard Kopsick for sexual abuse in 2020, despite his admission that his ex-wife and youngest son believe the accusations against Richard, and despite my insistence that I have an audible injury to my left rib which was caused by my father the last time he tried to abuse me (in the year 2000).
     Kopsick is an accused child rapist, who is defending accused child rapists. He currently lives in the Knollwood neighborhood of western Lake Bluff, Illinois, and works in downtown Waukegan.

 

     During the short time I spent as a secretary for my father, I personally observed Joe McKeown’s frequent absences from, and his frequent taking of showers in, his basement office. This made me suspect that McKeown had been masturbating at his desk. It’s likely that McKeown (the son of retired attorney Dennis McKeown) is both a pedophile and a Mason.

 

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     IV. Pedophile Defender Got Jackson's Ex-Wife to Make Him Her Attorney; Parental Alienator Got Jackson to Make Him His Attorney

 

     Kash's ex-wife's attorney, in the custody dispute, was Raymond Allen Boldt. In 1996, Boldt defended a pastor named Jeffrey B. Hannah for statutory rape of several teenage girls. Hannah was sentenced to nine years in prison, after Boldt described him as "psychologically immature" but not a sexual predator.
     [Source:
     http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/ct-xpm-1996-10-11-9610110122-story.html]

 

     One of the first attorneys Kash hired was David del Re. Mundelein father Sam Gorg claims that David del Re helped Gorg’s ex-wife alienate his children from him. Gorg also claims that Sol Rappaport, a Lake County psychiatrist, assisted del Re in that process.
     Sol Rappaport recommended Dr. Michael Feld to Richard Kopsick (for his son), at a time when Kopsick knew that his son had recovered memories of being molested, and was trying to make his family believe that my behavior at the time was the result of mental illness rather than the result of beginning to recover memories of being molested. Kopsick did this in order to discredit my claims.

     Feld prescribed me Abilify, but I never took it; in part because Feld never diagnosed me with any mental illness, and he never told me the name of the medication. I later discovered that Abilify had been the subject of the 14th most costly pharmaceutical lawsuit in U.S. history; and that it causes dissociation, mania, depression, and restlessness, while it was originally intended to get rid of those problems.
     After five visits with Dr. Michael Feld, I stopped going. Shortly thereafter, my aunt told me that Dr. Feld had been accused of having a sexual affair with one of his patients. If this accusation is true, then Feld violated Section 85d of Illinois Administrative Code, Title 68, Section 1283.100, in doing so. It would also mean that Feld is not informing his patients of the accusations against him, when some of his patients (including myself) include sexual abuse survivors.
     [Source:
     http//casetext.com/regulation/illinois-administrative-code/title-68-professions-and-occupations/part-1283-marriage-and-family-therapy-licensing-act/section-1283100-professional-conduct]

     I reported Michael Feld and Sol Rappaport to the Illinois Department of Financial and Professional Regulation in April 2021. I received an acknowledgment of receipt of my complaint, but I received no formal response.

     http://rumble.com/v2sm7uk-reporting-dr.-michael-feld-and-dr.-sol-rappaport-to-the-illinois-dept.-of-p.html

 

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     V. Kash Threatened Judge Joseph Salvi, Who Helped Stop Child Sexual Abuse Lawsuit Against Teacher David Miller from Going Forward

 

     One of the judges whom Kash threatened was Judge Joseph Salvi.

     In 2019, Joseph Salvi (along with justices Robert D. McLaren, Donald C. Hudson, and Mary S. Schostok) prevented a sexual abuse lawsuit from proceeding against Lake Forest High School theater director David Miller, applying Illinois’s statute of limitations on reporting such abuse.

     That statute was repealed in 2020, giving child sexual abuse accusers until the age of 40 to come forward, or unlimited if they were threatened. Justice Hudson died in April 2023.

 

     This year - 2023 - David Miller celebrates 47 years of grooming underage boys for sex, without legal consequences. He has abused at least five boys, and perhaps even as many as ten or more (judging by the list of plaintiffs who have been willing to come forward against him).

     At least five other L.F.H.S. teachers or officials helped cover-up Miller's abuses, as well as at least one Lake Forest police officer, and at least one therapist. The set of five or more L.F.H.S. teachers and officials includes former L.F.H.S. Principal Jay Hoffmann (who intimidated boys into saying that the texts they received from Miller weren't inappropriate, which is odd, given that Miller admitted they were inappropriate), and Hoffmann's boss, former District 115 Superintendent Harry Griffith. One of the boys confronted by Hoffmann was apparently not even one of the boys who had accused Miller, according to the 52-page investigation of the district's handling of the accusations against Miller, which was written by attorney Rebecca Veidlinger.

     [Source:
     http://s3.documentcloud.org/documents/20475829/lake-forest-high-school-district-115-investigation-into-former-employee-david-miller.pdf]

     Attorneys Veidlinger and Howard Kallem tried to have it both ways, by concluding, in that report, that the school could have done more, but also responded adequately.

     I worked in the technical crew for many of Lake Forest High School's plays between 2001 and 2005. Miller was there all the time. We knew that he had a beer gut and an anger problem, but nobody ever told us that he was any sort of sexual threat, or even that he had done or said anything creepy. Curiously, Miller appeared in only two of the four yearbooks issued by L.F.H.S. between 2001 and 2005.

 

     At least three other teachers, besides Miller, have been accused of sexual impropriety towards children, in the same area as Miller (i.e., Lake Forest and Lake Bluff), in the last fifty years; math teacher Charles "Chuck" Ritz III at Lake Bluff Middle School, English teacher Diane M. Ross at Lake Forest College, and driving instructor and coach Cynthia "Cindy" Martin at Lake Forest High School.

 

     It's unclear what legal consequences befell Cindy Martin, who groomed girls in the 1980s, but it's clear that Martin, like Miller, targeted children who had lost friends or family members, and groomed them with marijuana, alcohol, hugging, and massages, before engaging in sexual advances.

 

     Diane Ross (who posed as a teenage girl, using the screen name "Snowy Violet" and sent child pornography) was arrested in 2000, and posted a $20,000 bond. Lake Bluff residents were shocked to see her standing in the public square, enjoying the music of a local band, in full view of everyone, shortly after she was released. At this time, Ross had children who attended Lake Bluff Middle School. I am not aware of any attempts, by that school's principal at the time (Kathleen o'Hara, now the Mayor of Lake Bluff) to make an official statement to local parents about the accusations against Ross.

 

     Charles Ritz (who abused John Bollman in 1978, and others between 1975 and 1985) pled guilty to public indecency in 2017, after a 1985 party in Waukegan in which he provided minors with alcohol and marijuana and encouraged them to engage in mutual masturbation.
     [Sources:
     http://www.chicagotribune.com/suburbs/lake-forest/ct-lfr-lake-bluff-sex-abuse-lawsuit-tl-0426-story.html
     http://abc7chicago.com/lake-bluff-charles-ritz-teacher-sex-abuse-indecency-charges/2358255/

     Ritz lived, and continued to teach, in California, between 1985 and his 2016 arrest. It's likely that he continued abusing boys during this time as well. Ritz's accusers claim that District 65 (which includes Lake Bluff Middle School) knew that he was abusing children and did nothing.

     Ritz's alleged victims include John Bollman, Jim Moss, and Joey Lombardi.
     [Source:
     http://www.nbcchicago.com/news/local/lake-bluff-teacher-abuse-lawsuit/48134/]

     Judge Joseph Salvi, one of the two judges threatened by Kash Jackson, was also involved in Cynthia Miller's case.

 

     Just a mile south of Lake Forest High School - in Market Square - there is an ice cream shop called Sweet's, whose owner Jonathan Dick was accused of rape by his nephew, who said the abuse occurred at age ten. That abuse occurred some time around the year 2000. The victim's mother wrote in her book that she was worried that Dick might have a lawyer on retainer in case he needed legal defense for crimes against additional children.

     In the cases of these five people - Miller, Ritz, Ross, Martin, and Dick - all five pursued victims who were the same sex as the perpetrators.

 

     Judge Joseph Salvi is, thus, part of the machine that is keeping David Miller (and people like him) free. Is the fact that Judge Joseph Salvi still draws air - and walks around a free man - supposed to make Kash Jackson happy?

 

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     VI. Kash Jackson's Ex-Wife is Raising Her Kids in Lake County, Illinois, Where Child Sexual Abuse Survivors Go to Die

 

    Don't forget what Dennis Hastert, Anthony Weiner, and Jeffrey Epstein did to American children. Don't ever forget that those scandals were real. Don't forget, either, that Joe Biden pinched a child's nipple live on C-SPAN on January 3rd, 2015. We have video evidence of the sitting president molesting a child.

     Moreover, the entire police force of West Virginia is currently under investigation for sexual exploitation of minors and adults. Don't think for a second that there's a single state in the Union that doesn't have pedophile attorneys, sadistic judges trying to profit off the jailing of teens.

     Here in Illinois, there's even a rumor going around that our police departments' child sex crimes divisions are filled with people who are eager to see the evidence of those crimes and use it for sexual gratification. Evidently, some officers are being assigned to review such evidence, to note and count each specific criminal count; and then reporting to their superiors that the job is traumatizing them. These officers are not being relieved of their duties, nor are they being given adequate psychiatric counseling to help deal with having to look at those images. So they end up quitting, and the only people left are the ones who are there because they enjoy watching people rape children on video.

     We need to ask ourselves whether some G.A.L.s and police officers are choosing their professions solely to get legal custody of children and/or witness records of child abuse for self-gratification.

 

     The state is trying to take your children away so it can sexually abuse them.

     The fact that Kash Jackson and I have the exact same set of abusers, shows that the same group of people which is trying to take kids away from parents for no good reason, is the same set of people that is defending accused child rapists in court. And in some cases (as in the case of Richard Kopsick and Scott Gibson), these attorneys are child sexual abusers themselves.

     We have enough evidence to conclude that that is the case. We cannot live in denial. Not when people like Ted Gunderson have been warning us about well-known politicians abusing children since as early as the 1990s.

     The threats our children face are clear, and they need the protection of both parents, in order to make it safely to adulthood, without becoming too traumatized or ignored to be able to put their trust in the local authorities and courts.

 

     Kash's children - and his ex-wife - are not safe. But Kash's children are unsafe, not because of Kash.

     They're unsafe because they're in such close proximity to pedophile defender Raymond Allen Boldt, parental alienator David del Re, friend to pedophiles Sally Lichter, and the child predator attorneys and teachers, racist police officers, and rapist psychiatrist who drug their patients, that are crawling in every corner of Lake County professional society.

     Other people and agencies which have been specifically named by Kash Jackson as having assisted in the alienation of his children include Judge Janelle J. Christensen, Judge Christopher B. Morozin, attorney Nicole F. Slobe, Libertyville-based attorney Ronald L. Bell, Waukegan-based attorney Laura Horner, Bannockburn-based attorney Marc R. Fisher, former Lake County State's Attorney Michael Nerheim, former Lake County Sheriff Mark Curran, and the Office of Child Support Enforcement.

     He also named Libertyville-based attorney Gary Schlesinger, a friend of child-raping attorney Richard S. Kopsick.

     Lake County Sheriff Mark Curran's replacement, John Idleburg, has been a harsh critic of Kash Jackson as well. Lake County State's Attorney Michael Nerheim's replacement, Eric Rinehart, professes to support sexual abuse lawsuits going forward, and allies himself with Zacharias Sexual Abuse Center, but he declined a 2021 offer to appear on David Rych's Reality Radio to discuss sexual abuse in Lake County with Joe Kopsick.

     Zacharias Sexual Abuse Center made no attempt to convince Victor o'Block to file charges against Richard Kopsick after his son accused him of sex offenses in 2019 and then came to Zacharias to seek a therapist.

 

     Lake County, Illinois's court system - and its ability to respond when children accuse adults of sex crimes - are broken. Any child in this county whom is abused by someone with enough money or power or connections, is liable to "slip through the cracks". The fact that many other counties are like this, doesn't mean it's not a problem.

     Lake Bluff Middle School, Lake Forest High School, and their respective districts, have each been caught covering-up for, and turning blind eyes towards, child molesting teachers in their midst.

     In 2012 and 2013, three teenage boys who attended Lake Forest High School jumped in front of trains for unknown reasons, committing suicide.

     In mid-2020, Charles Ritz's accuser John Bollman removed me from the Facebook group Scout Pride - intended to facilitate discussion about child-molesting teachers in the area - after I made a post accusing my father and Scott Gibson of molesting me.

     Kids in Lake County who fail to get charges filed against their abusers, did not "slip through the cracks". Kids who killed themselves in Lake Forest did not "slip through the cracks". Lake Bluff and Lake Forest and Waukegan are cracks. If Lake County, Illinois had a flag, it would be a picture of a giant crack for child sexual abuse accusers to slip into.

 

     Yet this is where Kash Jackson's ex-wife has chosen to raise her children.

 

     Kash doesn't even want to be here. He wants to live in Arkansas. He wants his children to grow up on a farm, with a horse.

     He wants them to have a real childhood, unlike the suburban parents of Lake County, who want their children so cloistered, sheltered, and dependent that they never stop submitting to adults in exchange for help.

 

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     VII. Kash Jackson is an American Hero

     Kash’s detractors have got him all wrong.

     He is not a child abuser; he doesn’t even believe in spanking.
     He is not a deadbeat dad; he is a veteran of a navy that has refused to pay him decently for his valiant 19 years of service.
     Nor is he a redneck or a racist; he opposes deportation of non-violent undocumented immigrants, and gave a speech on mounted horseback while defending the water at Standing Rock.
     He is not a woman-hater; despite the media's attempts to rake him over the coals for making an (obviously not seriously intended) joke about women belonging in the kitchen (which he did in front of his then-girlfriend, and she voiced no objection). In fact, the reason why he punished his son was because his son had forgotten to leave the toilet seat down for the females present in the house.

 

     He restored cynical Libertarians’ faith in democracy when he won his primary by a single vote (defeating his two opponents).
     And he is the most successful non-elected candidate the Libertarian Party of Illinois has ever had (making it into a live gubernatorial debate, in which he sparred with J.B. Pritzker and Bruce Rauner to their faces.
     He is a patriot, he inspires patriotism wherever he goes (which is why he has been incarcerated), and he is the closest thing that Illinois has to an Abraham Lincoln figure, who is still living today.

     But most of all, Kash Jackson is my friend. He welcomed me into his home, and fed me. I know my friend, and he does not deserve to be in prison.
     And he certainly doesn’t deserve to see the state brainwash his children into believing that their father is evil because he gets angry at the government sometimes.
     Nor does he deserve an ex-wife who has made it so difficult for Kash to have a normal relationship with his children, that interacting with their father became so rare, traumatic, and so expensive for Kash, that Kash could do nothing but pay court costs and attorneys’ fees (which he would have otherwise sent to his children for support).
     He certainly doesn't deserve an ex-wife who is so clueless that she would choose a lawyer, to represent the interests of herself and her children, without even checking as to whether that lawyer had previously defended any child rapists.

     Kash Jackson hasn’t seen his children in years, and the State of Illinois is trying to fool everybody (including Kash himself, and his children) into thinking that that is Kash's fault.

     It is nobody's fault but the State of Illinois, its family court system, and the network of greedy and predatory lawyers (some of whom, I have shown, either make their livings defending pedophiles, and/or are pedophiles themselves) whose offices pepper the legal district of Lake County's seat of Waukegan, Illinois.

 

 

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     VIII. Demonization of Fathers Leads to Exposure of Children to Sex and Genital Mutilation

 

     We must free Kash Jackson and end parental alienation now.

     But we must also resist the state's attempts to artificially justify its own power, by provoking and inciting us into becoming so angry that we have no choice but to issue violent threats; against its obviously unjust rule, and against its the greedy, predatory, remorseless people who choose to serve it.

 

     Which is worse? That one boy should spend a few hours in therapy because his father made him stack bricks in the snow (at either age six or ten, according to conflicting reports); or that ten thousand children have their breasts and testicles removed, and get exposed to sex by teachers and drag queens, because the state has successfully demonized Kash Jackson, and all of America's fathers along with him?
     If Kash Jackson had been elected Governor of Illinois in 2018, fathers' contributions to households would be respected, and ninety percent of this "children in drag" and "child genital mutilation" bullshit would never have happened. At least not in Illinois, which is unfortunately, instead, the home of Jennifer Pritzker, the governor's sister, and the world's only transgender billionaire.

     Some fathers are abusive; this is true, but Kash Jackson is not one of them. Just as some fathers are abusive, some mothers are creepy, or vindictive, or gold-diggers, or misandrists.

     Such mothers tend to have inane, nihilistic ideations about the proper way to raise a child, which expose children and their unwitting fathers to untold levels of emotional torture and degradation. Taking away the one person (the father) out of his children's lives - when he would otherwise be around to help bounce ideas off of his own and his wife's heads - is the last thing we should be doing to help women and children.

 

     Kash's children are not safe. Not because of Kash, like his ex-wife wants people to think they are. Kash's children are unsafe for the same reason that Kash's ex-wife is unsafe.

     They're unsafe because they're in such close proximity to Kash's ex-wife's lawyer, pedophile defender Raymond Allen Boldt. And to the children's Guardian Ad Litem, Sally Lichter, a friend to pedophile attorneys. And to parental alienator David del Re, who was able to trick Kash into trusting him.

     Lake County, its police departments, its schools, and its attorneys, are hiding child rapists. Rapist psychiatrists who drug their patients are helping them get away with it. We know their names. We know their victims' names.

     I guess, now, we know why a man might lose his temper for a moment, and threaten a judge or two.

 

     There are a lot of lawyers in Waukegan whose jobs would be on the line, if Judge Joseph Salvi or Judge Al Salvi got their feelings or reputations hurt the tiniest bit. And Waukegan's former mayor Sam Cunningham, who defended Joe Biden's groping of children, would be upset as well.

     But I guess it's all worth it, as long as Kash Jackson is deprived of adequate nutrition and hygiene in a jail cell until he looks like a crazy person.

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     IX. The Police Aren't Obligated to Protect Abused Children

 

     The U.S. Supreme Court has ruled that parents have a fundamental right to raise their children (in Washington v. Glucksberg, 1997; and Troxel v. Granville, 2000). And that is good for people who fight for their children's rights to have normal relationships with both non-abusvie parents.

     But on the other hand, the Supreme Court has also ruled that the state has no obligation to protect children from parental abuse (in DeShaney v. Winnebago County Department of Social Services, 1989). Additionally, police have no obligation to enforce agreements to transfer custody of children unless there is a warrant signed by a judge requiring them to do so. The decisions in Warren v. D.C. (1981) and Castle Rock v. Gonzales (2004) protect police officers from being held legally responsible for failing to protect individuals who do not have a pre-existing private contract with the police.
     This state of affairs endangers children, and it is obviously morally wrong. But do not give in to despair; at least we know, now, that these are the specific problems and contradictions at hand when we deal with custody laws, and we know the name of the Supreme Court decisions which need to be overturned or modified (and reconciled with one another) in order to protect children and innocent parents alike.
     We need to craft laws that purge police departments and family courts of predators. We need to make family courts rare by making 50-50 joint custody the default and the norm unless and until abuse has been proven. And local governments should apologize profusely for their mistakes, and beg parents to put their trust in the new officers hired to replace the untrustworthy old ones (which, ironically, are probably mostly the young ones).

     Parents need to be able to trust police to make wise decisions when they show up to a child drop-off, and the child is screaming that she doesn't want to go with her mother because her mother is watching while she allows her boyfriend to touch her daughter's private parts. This does happen, it happened in Texas, and the officers helped the mother take custody of the girl even though they had no apparent duty to do so.

 

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     X. Parental Alienation is Torture

 

     Parents who have not abused their children have rights.

     Alienating children from their parents is torture, and it is a deprivation of human rights. Kash Jackson didn’t abuse his kids; the court system did. And the people who took Jackson’s custody away, and put him in jail, would have abused those children a whole lot more, if their mother had become unable to take care of her children.

 

     Just a year before Kash's sentencing, one of Kash's few trusted attorneys, Ted Bush, died of cancer.

     This occurred after Bush was involved in his own bitter custody dispute, with his disrespectful, arrogant, vindictive ex-wife Erica, who knew Ted was dying and evidently made no efforts to treat him any more politely out of respect for his predicament. That case was presided-over by Judge Julie B. Aimen.

     Additionally, Kash's mother Paula is dying of cancer.

     This innocent man has been tortured enough.

 

     Kash Jackson is the last hero of the parents’ rights movement. But he doesn’t have to be. We can all be the new heroes that this movement needs.

     And you don't even need to be a parent in order to do it; all you need to do is tell people to learn about parental alienation. Everyone in America needs to know the phrase "parental alienation", and the harm it inflicts on children and wrongly accused parents alike.

     We must stand up for falsely accused and maliciously prosecuted fathers, and get people to understand that not everyone who fights for fathers' rights is a child-beating woman-hater.
     And, as for us in Lake County (which includes Kash's most recent hometown of Antioch). we must spread awareness about the child abuse enablers in Lake County's family courts, schools, police departments, and therapy clinics.
     Until then, you can celebrate Kash Jackson's birthday on October 4th; whether in your own home, or in the streets with other people who care.

 

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    XI: Conclusion: Lake County Family Law Court System Deliberately Ganged Up on Kash Jackson in Order to Sabotage His Mental Health and Destroy His Reputation

 

     During his custody dispute, Kash Jackson claimed that Lake County court officials misled him, and failed to inform him in time, about his upcoming court dates. This caused him to miss court dates, and to suffer severe consequences afterwards, in terms of his reliability and his reputation.

     The family court system of Lake County, Illinois deliberately sabotaged Mr. Jackson, and deliberately provoked him into such a severe state of emotional distress, that he issued the threats that he did.

     This pedophile-enabling gang, which runs the Lake County family court system, ganged up on Jackson, making him live in reasonable fear that pedophile attorneys were coming after him and his children. I believe that I have proven, above, that they were, in fact, coming after his children.

     Any person would lose their mind in such a situation. You don't have to be crazy to do something like that; you just have to be crazy about your kids.

 

     Mr. Jackson's conviction should be thrown out; not only because he was intentionally provoked into a temporary state of insanity, in which he was not in full control of his faculties (because the state didn't want him to be).

     But also because of the obvious conflict of interest (i.e., the state's prevailing interest to take custody of children in order to subject them to unwanted sexual touching, and the interest of pedophile attorneys and judges and police officers to discredit credible victims on purpose in order to protect each other's jobs).

 

     Suddenly Jordan Klepper doesn't seem so funny anymore, does he?

 

 

    XII: Update (Posted on December 10th, 2023):

     Kash Jackson was released from prison in late November 2023.

 

 

 

 

Written on June 11th and 12th, 2023.

 

Published on June 11th, 2023.

 

Edited and expanded on June 12th, and December 10th and 26th, 2023.