Reference Chart Regarding the As Many As Twenty-One Incidents of Sexual Abuse Which I Endured as a Child

      The following image is a spreadsheet which should help explain the between four and twenty-one incidents of sexual abuse which I endured as a child.
     This image is a clarification of the grid found in my second statement to police, which was written between January and March 2021, and delivered to Lake Bluff police in early March 2021.
     That statement can be read at the following link:
     http://www.aquarianagrarian.blogspot.com/2021/03/second-statement-to-police-regarding.html


     

     I was molested no less than three or four times - in 1995 and probably also 1996 - via forced subjection to unwanted genital touching, during overwhelming tickling by my father. The restraint and forced laughing to which my father would expose me, for as long as five minutes at a time, caused partial suffocation.
     Some of the memories I have are vivid, while others are partial. I have vivid memories of no less than three or four of those incidents, partial memories of as many as eight other incidents of possible abuse on the couch, and nine other incidents.

     That partial suffocation, coupled with my father's routine screaming at me for years after the abuse, caused me to forget the abuse some time between the ages of ten and thirteen years old (between Incident #20 and Incident #21).
     [Note: The process by which a person's conscious mind is shielded from dealing with painful and traumatic memories, is called Adaptive Information Processing (A.I.P.). When memories of trauma are so suppressed that it begins to affect a person's personality, this can cause what is called the "splitting" of the psyche; for example, into a "Jekyll and Hyde", or into "multiple personalities". Multiple Personality Disorder is now called Dissociative Identity Disorder.] 

     I have also created this spreadsheet to explain which incidents I remember the most clearly, and which I remember the least clearly.

     I began recovering memories of the other incidents in late 2014 and early 2015 (at the ages of 27 and 28 years old). More vivid memories surfaced in 2017; of Incidents #5 through #16 (the incidents of abuse on the gray couch).

     Incident #21 was the last possible time that my father may have tried to touch me against my will; I suspect that Incident #21 was a failed molestation attempt.
     I have always remembered Incidents #1, #2, and #4, but I remain uncertain as to whether sexual touching occurred during those incidents.

          The incidents of genital touching via forced tickling on the gray couch, are the incidents I remember the most clearly.

     Incidents bearing a low percentage (in terms of how sure I am that something sexual happened during the incident) are the incidents which I remember the least clearly.

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Created and Published on May 12th, 2021

Yelp Review for My Father's Law Office

     The following was written as a review, on Yelp.com, for my father's law office, the Law Offices of Richard S. Kopsick, P.C. (based in Waukegan, Illinois). It was written as a warning for those who are considering becoming his clients.

      Richard Kopsick is my father. When I was 28 years old I recovered memories of him molesting me at age 8 and 9. This year I found out that in 1993 my father defended a child molester named Kenneth Hasty.

     My father emotionally and psychologically tortured me every week of my life; by screaming at me, mocking me for seeming affectionate and emotional, making gay jokes about me, and refusing to talk to me when I needed his help most, until I was a drug addicted homeless person. Richard Kopsick would rather make me - his own first born son - into a silent homeless drug addict, and try to put me on sedatives and send him to a mental institution, than admit what he did to me.

     He would rather see me kill myself than admit that he committed at least 3 aggravated counts of criminal sexual abuse, punishable by up to 6 years in prison each. He subjected me to overwhelming tickling, including tickling on the genitalia, and told me we were just playing.

     Richard Kopsick is an alcoholic who drinks and drives and tailgates and speeds, uses the fact that he's a lawyer to get away with it, and lets minors drink in his presence.

     He tried to put me on a sedative "antipsychotic" before I had been diagnosed with anything and without anyone telling me what the drug would do to me. I could have become paralyzed or mute or unable to remember the abuse he inflicted on me as a child. I knew this man had no morals when I was 8 years old, when he told me it wasn't unethical to defend someone you know is guilty.

     Richard Kopsick is a narcissist who pretends he is friendly and affable, it is all an act. This is a facade he puts on because he can't admit who he really is. He hates children and he hates seeing joy in the faces of people he should love. Richard Kopsick is a severely disturbed individual.

     He has destroyed the cohesion of the family he built with my mother, after my mother's side of the family was already affected by the tragedy of childhood sexual abuse.

     My father inflicted horrible emotional, verbal, physical, and sexual abuse on me, and did it privately and subtly enough to get away with it but also openly enough to desensitize his wife and his other son to my abuse.

     His former partner Scott Gibson also pinched kids' asses at his pool parties, he [Gibson] and his ex-wife are severe alcoholics, and Gibson used to do heroin in the 70s. Richard Kopsick exposed me to this child molester and nobody stopped his ass grabbing.

     Richard Kopsick helped me find attorneys to defend me on some nonviolent marijuana possession charges, but never admitted that anti[-]pot laws can be challenged in court through jury nullification, and never admitted to anyone that [I] started smoking pot to fix the dissociative and antisocial states that [he] put me in as a child.

     Would rate zero stars if I could.

Written and Posted to Yelp on March 15th, 2021

Published to This Blog on March 16th, 2021